1. |
Sorrow
04:47
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(Sonika)
Years have gone by and I still feel so bad.
TraumA still happens to me and it feels so...
Unable to function is what makes it sad.
My life's a nightmare but I let it go.
(Luka)
Sometimes, we cry but there is always a way to live.
We lived through hell, but we didn't go astray
(Ruby)
Feeling all the sorrow,
but we will live and thrive.
We are ok but still suffer.
Even though the tunnel's narrow,
and We will survive!
There are many places to discover!
(Miku)
Hey My TraumA doesn't define me
I may have suffered and I may feel upset.
But I will always find a way in ME.
I'm not like the others! My past has been set
(Luka)
I am not BrOkEn
I'm not like others nor myself.
My opportunities has been opened.
(Sonika)
Feeling all the sorrow
Even though we have cried
My life may have been a blur
My life may been shot by arrows.
And we have all tried
We can always with upon a star!
(Luka, P@!N)
Laying in bed at the hospital,
Thinking twice about my life make me ill
(Luka, BrOkEn)
Can't you see?
That I am BrOkEn..
(Miku, Depression)
Could someone help me with emotion
It's taking over me PLEASE HELP ME?
(Luka, Pieces)
I can't find myself i've lost myself
From TRAUMA DEALING WITH MY PAIN remembering everything
I felt IT HURTS
(Ruby)
This P@!N I feel may be so endless,
There wil be light at the end of the tunnel
We don't have to survive but we can live.
We are NOT defenseless
It's ok to struggle.
(Miku)
Feeling all the sorrow
Even though we have cried
I will always be there for you
We all can do this together.
I am happy now,
I have always tried my hardest
Stay alive!
(Luka)
My life may be in pain.
but I know I am not alone.
I can do this
I can always have Gains!
(Luka, P@!N)
Laying in bed at the hospital,
Thinking twice about my life make me ill
(Luka, BrOkEn)
Can't you see?
That I am BrOkEn..
(Miku, Depression)
Could someone help me with emotion
It's taking over me PLEASE HELP ME?
(Luka, Pieces)
I can't find myself i've lost myself
From TRAUMA DEALING WITH MY PAIN remembering everything
I felt IT HURTS
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2. |
Pieces
03:55
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(miku)
can't you see that
I am broken in pieces
crying
as i pick up pieces
(luka)
i can't find myself
i've lost myself
from TRAUMA
DEALING WITH MY PAIN
remembering everything
i felt IT HURTS
what do i do to
make it stop
feeling this pain
was too much
the pieces fallen
--
(miku)
All this pain
I felt
is constantly going
crying, it won't stop
pieces are gone
--
(miku)
can't you see that
I am broken in pieces
crying
as i pick up piece
(luka)
no matter what i do
i always break down
into pieces, crying
i try not to remember
but they all hurts.
the pieces has fallen
but i've lost them all.
How do i get more?
i don't have them.
--
(miku)
No matter what i do
i still can't find
my pieces anywhere
(luka)
I'm not ok but I am.
but i have failed
--
(miku)
Can you see that I am
Feeling ok now that
i got more pieces i've replaced
(luka)
Since my trauma i felt afraid
because i was lost and lost myself
i've dealt with my pain
even though i still hurt
i may have my new pieces
but i can never replace them
i am ok now
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3. |
Strength
03:43
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Thinking twice about my life,
Oh where have my life gone?
Since I have gained more pieces,
I've still lost it.
THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.
My life flashed before me what to do?
What am I supposed to do with myself?
You know I cannot take this anymore...
FUCK IT ALL I'M GAINING STRENGTH!
My trauma has hit me hard,
Oh My life has gone away
The pain is still there
And I have become scarred.
THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING TO DO!
Hey, even though I have lost it all.
I can begin to improve myself now.
I wanna thank you for being there.
I HAVE GAINED ALL OF MY STRENGTH!
The strength I have was by myself
It was hard, it took energy,
I lost myself in the process
I tried so hard, but I'm not good enough.
No matter what I do I am the same
Even though it seems different to me..
But thats ok because I'm here
I CAN SHARE ALL OF MY STRENGTH!
Together we can gain the strength
to get through this,
No matter what happens
I will be here for YOU.
I tried hard and I am good enough.
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4. |
Anxiety
03:45
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What to do?
This anxiety kills me
It is endless, unfocused
What do I do with this?
I feel so much discomfort
PLEASE MAKE IT STOP
THEY TELL ME TO STOP DWELLING IT
BUT IT IS ENDLESS AND PAIN
Get over it they say to me
I CAN'T HAVE STUFF FOR THIS PAIN!
What to do?
I dwell on things endlessly..
Hypochondriac, chronic pain, and endless depression..
WHY DO I GET ANXIETY?
IT JUST WON'T STOP
I REALLY CAN'T STOP DWELLING IT!
WHY DO I FREAK OUT ON THINGS?
I CAN'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR THIS!
I CAN'T HAVE STUFF FOR THIS PAIN!
THIS ANXIETY KILLS ME
OH I WANT IT TO LEAVE ME
PLEASE MAKE IT STOP I HAVE PLEAD
AND I WISH I WAS CAREFREE
THIS DISCOMFORT'S KILLING ME
I WILL THROW AWAY THE KEY..
I AM DROWNING IN THIS SEA
CAN YOU PLEASE JUST LET ME BE.
All I do is dwell on all things!
I can't just get over it.
Please stop telling me to calm down!
I CAN'T HAVE STUFF FOR THIS PAIN!
I am aware of my problems
STOP WITH THE ABLEISM.
Your intentions are well received...
YOUR ABLEISM SHOWED UP
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5. |
Bipolar
03:31
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Hey here I am again,
And blissfully unaware of my problems.
No more anger, no more sadness anymore
It all went away and I feel so happy.
Nothing can stop me!
Being ignorant has made me feel oh so good!
OH DEAR IT LOOKS LIKE I HAVE FORGOTTEN MY MEDS AGAIN...
I've taken them but it is too late.
The meds have not kicked in yet...
OH DEAR HERE WE GO AGAIN
The anger the sadness has all came back again!
I want to hurt and cry it just won't stop!
my doctor cannot help me!
I have no one to talk to,
I have no healing plans to start!
The disorder of my life is ENDLESS
Please make it ALL stop!
BLissfully unaware again
I feel so much better now
"What problems?" I say
It is nonexistent and I'm ignorant.
No more anger, no more sadness
I never felt so much better
Unaware of everything feels oh so so good!
I feel so happy, yes.
Unaware of my life.
Unaware of the world's problems.
My meds have helped me and I feel NUMB
This numbness feels so good to me...
THE IGNORANCE HAS GONE AWAY
AND I AM NOW AWARE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS PROBLEMS.
I FEEL SO MUCH ANGER, SADNESS...
MY BIPOLAR DEPRESSION IS ENDLESS TO ME
MY DOCTOR WON'T HELP ME
MY LIVER IS THEIR EXCUSE
HOW DO I GET BETTER?
I AM NO LONGER UNAWARE AND,
IT HURTS TO SEE MY PROBLMS AND THE DISORDER OF MY LIFE.
OH PLEASE MAKE IT ALL STOP.
MY EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION IS WORST THAN EVER
THIS SONG IS ANNOYING ME
I WANT TO BE NUMB BUT IT CAN'T FIX MY...
BIBIBIBIBIPOLAR
BIPOLAR IS ENDLESS FOR ME
DEPRESSION KICKS MY ASS
EVERYTHING IS ENDLESS CYCLE OF ANGER AND SADNESS
MANICMANICMANICMANIC
MANIC MANIC
MANICMANICMANICMANICMANICMANICMANIC
BIBIBIBIBIBIBI
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6. |
Mania
03:32
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I am unstoppable again...
What the hell does my mind
want to get gain?
Oh, please make all stop
I really wanna drop,
I can't take it anymore,
I wanna hit the floor.
MANIC MANIC MANIC---
ah, my mind is racing again...
Ah what the hell does my mind want to do to gain?
I'm still on the computer again.
ah, People look at me in disdain, ah ah ah
It's unstoppable
I can't get it right
I wanna be stable!!
HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME
What do I do with it?
This bipolar is killing me
I want to be abled!
I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
Mania is controlling me again!!
All I wanna do is just complain
about my life how it is in chains..
Oh my brain has free rein!!
I think I have calmed down finally...
It stopped but did it really stop?
I can't see it.
This happiness won't last for a while,
I can't even turn down the dial...
ah ah ah
Mania is controlling me
I can't get control of the brain
(THE IGNORANCE HAS GONE AWAY
AND I AM NOW AWARE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS PROBLEMS.
I FEEL SO MUCH ANGER, SADNESS...
MY BIPOLAR DEPRESSION IS ENDLESS TO ME
MY DOCTOR WON'T HELP ME
MY LIVER IS THEIR EXCUSE
HOW DO I GET BETTER?)
the ignorance is all gone
I wish i could be numb again
I can't deal with this
I wanna sleep
Ah this is such a pain
Finally! its gone!
But it was the worst feeling in the whole world
(Please don't let it happen to me soon..)
Endlessly buying useless crap when i have no money to spare
(I WANT THAT DOPAMINE ASAP)
Mania is controlling me again!!
All I wanna do is just complain
about my life how it is in chains..
Oh my brain has free rein!!
I've calmed down and I just need to adjust
and even though my life is a disrupt
I will be ok, give me trust.
I can't wait for results
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7. |
PTSD
05:03
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Ah it replays in my head...
Will it ever stop?
The P@!N I feel everyday,
It always make my mind drop.
This P@!N I feel is endless.
I know it'll stop.
They say that I am so blessed.
But thats so toxic to say..
Hey, Do you know how it feels?
to have your heart beat so fast in fear?
It feels like the walls have caved.
The moment I flashed, my life is a grave
I don't know what to do with it.
What do I do?
I've fallen into the pit
I'm so screwed
My world seem to fall apart and,
I can't help it!
I can only speak through my art,
It helps!
This P@!N I feel is endless.
I can't help myself.
Even though it never stops..
It leaves me all stressed.
Oh hell..
I'm just a shell for my soul.
But I've always lived here all alone.
All I want is to be whole,
But I prob need to reap what I've sown.
I just can't take it anymore
My brain is so fried..
What to do?
My soul and mind is at war...
I know that I've tried.
I've broke through!
You know I still hurt, I'm ok.
I am alive!
I don't believe but I've prayed.
I took a dive!
Even though I still hurt inside,
It just replays
In my own soul, I have cried.
I must make way.
The trauma may have happened, but
I'm still alive.
I need to make amends and,
and I will thrive
I may have lost all my pieces,
But I gained more.
I will be my success, I can soar!
I appreciate my life,
even if though I hurt.
My P@!N cut me like a knife,
But I won't let it fall apart
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8. |
Trauma
03:17
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The world's falling apart on me
It's collapsing all around me.
I couldn't take it anymore,
My trauma is kicking my ass please help me!
What am I 'posed to with this?
I am so lost I tried religion
I don't wanna go through this again OH MY GOD
It's taking over me again.
I'm breaking down all over the place!
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE
I HAVE NO SPOONS LEFT IN ME ANYMORE.
--
What am I supposed to do with this?
Depression kicked my ass again!
It replays again in my brain!!
TRAUMA HURTS AGAIN AHH AHH
--
Here we go we playing this game.
My life is falling apart gain
being disabled is a pain.
IT HURTS EVERY FUCKING DAY AMEN
I wish I was abled but I'm not.
No matter what I want won't happen.
I'm in so much pain even meds don't freaking work!
Praying and Praying but don't work
I'm so tired my brain is so fried
What the fuck am I supposed to do
I really feel like my fuse blew
--
What am I supposed to do with this?
Depression kicked my ass again!
It replays again in my brain!!
TRAUMA HURT'S AGAIN. AHH AHH
--
I have tried my best I am so stressed.
Depression again kicked my ass
Memories replays I'm a mess
I know I am "blessed" AH AH
Depression hurts but I know I can Do this again.
No matter what, I will always stay in tis world.
we can do this now AH AH
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9. |
STOP
05:36
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Living a life full of Pain
I can't go through this again,
what will my life ever gain?
Being chronic is a strain
As I lie in bed all drained,
oh being disabled is a stain..
You know sometimes,
I accept that I am Broken.
But still it hurts my own soul..
It always would leave
everyone all heart broken.
It would always leave me cold.
I really want you to please
stop feeling sorry for me.
I am not the one with the
problem with your morals.
I don't understand people
Why do I have got to be
ashamed of my life and me
PLEASE DON'T START ANY QUARRELS.
Yes, my life can be a pain,
I accepted my own bane,
My life will have its own gain.
I may have always complained,
I can always be maintained,
I am alright but don't be a pain.
You know sometimes,
I will accept my depression.
but I can't seem to escape...
Everyone seem
to keep me under suppression
It always leave me in worst shape!
Can't you see that I...
Am suffering pain?
No matter what I do...
It seems so endless!
Please don't feel sorry for me
I will always be OK.
and no matter what I'll do.
I WILL ALWAYS SURVIVE.
Ableds may misunderstand,
But I surely don't trust them.
And it is not my problem
To fix their sad morals..
Aaaaahhh!
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10. |
Demon
04:16
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Can't keep up up up up
I can't stop stop stop stop
Can't focus us us us us
I think I'm on speed
I feel lost lost lost
Song's a bop bop bop bop
Oh shiny y y y y
someone set me free
I am not on medication
I think I am on vacation
Oh my god what a situtation
Application not responding
My brain's action is still pending
Oh why is my brain neurons starting and rotting
I gotta go so fast
I gotta go
I gotta go
I can't focus on this
I can't focus
I can't focus
So much of time has passed
I have lost it
I have lost it
I miss my wholesome bliss
oh where is it
oh where is it
I am lost lost lost lost
Where's my keys keys keys keys
Where's my life life life life
Why am I on speed
I can't rhyme rhyme rhyme
No focus us us us us
Where's my time time time time
Please make it all stop
I am not on medication
Look at me repeating something
Oh my god what a situation.
I cannot focus on something
Oh I need some stimulation
Application not responding
WHAT'S GOING ON?
I don't have things to do
no things to do
no things to do
I'm unstimulated
Need figet toys
Need figet toys
I lost all my life's time
I have lost it
I have lost it
This song won't rhyme for me
Oh no it won't
Oh no it won't
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ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD
ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD
I can't focus on things
Oh no I can't
Oh no I can't
I feel oh so tired
Oh so tired
Oh so tired
I have lost all my time
writing this song
it is so dumb
Thank you for listening
To my rambles
To my rambles..
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11. |
ADHD
03:40
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Can't keep up up up up
I can't stop stop stop stop
Can't focus us us us us
I think I'm on speed
I feel lost lost lost
Song's a bop bop bop bop
Oh shiny y y y y
someone set me free
I am not on medication
I think I am on vacation
Oh my god what a situtation
Application not responding
My brain's action is still pending
Oh why is my brain neurons starting and rotting
I gotta go so fast
I gotta go
I gotta go
I can't focus on this
I can't focus
I can't focus
So much of time has passed
I have lost it
I have lost it
I miss my wholesome bliss
oh where is it
oh where is it
I am lost lost lost lost
Where's my keys keys keys keys
Where's my life life life life
Why am I on speed
I can't rhyme rhyme rhyme
No focus us us us us
Where's my time time time time
Please make it all stop
I am not on medication
Look at me repeating something
Oh my god what a situation.
I cannot focus on something
Oh I need some stimulation
Application not responding
WHAT'S GOING ON?
I don't have things to do
no things to do
no things to do
I'm unstimulated
Need figet toys
Need figet toys
I lost all my life's time
I have lost it
I have lost it
This song won't rhyme for me
Oh no it won't
Oh no it won't
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ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD
ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD ADHD
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I can't focus on things
Oh no I can't
Oh no I can't
I feel oh so tired
Oh so tired
Oh so tired
I have lost all my time
writing this song
it is so dumb
Thank you for listening
To my rambles
To my rambles..
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12. |
ParT SaddenD
04:23
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Life's in shambles...
My mind is in constant fear.
Won't scream when my heart can't,
Hear..
Do you understand?
Could you please lend a hand?
Ah my feelings feel too dark,
I'm in shock!
Nothing lights up my spark..
Even though I hurt inside,
I can try,
I can cry.
Even though my walls caved
Not a grave,
I forgave.
-2-
Life's in shambles...
My wall has caved,
from my pain.
I have to push me,
sane.
Won't you understand?
Please could you lend a hand?
I have to put on my mask,
I must hide!
My pain hurts,
I must go back..
Even though I can't give up,
Mind's corrupt...
I am stuck...
Even though I can't get out,
I have doubts...
I MUST SHOUT!
-outro-
Can you hear?
My heart beating?
I have to go on,
There is a brand new dawn AHH!
-3-
Even though I am in pain,
I can gain,
Try again.
Even though the walls have caved,
I forgave
I'll be brave!
NOT AFRAID!!
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13. |
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Sitting in the snow and,
My thoughts are pondering.
On why I have spent,
my whole life wandering?
Feeling the cold wind blow
As I am shivering,
keeping both of my hands
luke warm by breathing.
Wheel of life is sitting still,
I do not have time to kill.
I ever hear is my mind
Wishing I'm not here.
All of this is new to me.
All I want is just to be
Happy and carefree
I don't need this reality :)
Feeling all the sorrows...
Flowing through inside my veins,
And my whole life is at a stop.
There is nothing you can do.
There is no tomorrow...
This feeling of endless pain,
And I just really want to drop.
I don't know what I can do?
Everything comes and goes...
--
Laying in the snow and
My thoughts are pondering.
Why do I keep on fighting
for everything?
Feeling the cold wind blow,
I keep on wondering...
what's the entire purpose of everything?
There is not a thing fulfilled.
Where is all the fun and thrill?
Things taken a still,
I've no will for me to stay here.
What is there I cannot see?
I really wanna be free.
I am on my knees,
I'm trying so hard to appease!
Why do I feel sorrow?
Why do I keep feeling this pain?
Why can't I shed a tear drop?
Don't think I'm at a break through
Is there a tomorrow?
I feel like I'm a nasty stain.
I am such a total flop LOL
I don't think I ever grew.
Let this show take a close :)
--
I realize that I'm a shell,
I am living in my hell,
When do I get my farewell?
I guess that is a never...
My whole life is such a fail,
I can no longer inhale,
My best was to no avail,
Oh my I am such a CLOWN.
I am unable to bail,
All I ever do is wail,
Empty feelings get so stale,
Oh what shall I ever do?
My life is a small detail,
Like a sentence from a tale,
How can I ever prevail?
I just took my last exhale!!
Ending all my sorrows :)
I am relieved from all my pain.
I am on the mountain top,
Screaming my music through you.
There is no tomorrow
Despite my existance is bane,
All I do is cry non stop.
I can no longer stay true.
And I have stopped the flow :)
The cycle continues again,
So I stopped time on the clock.
I don't want to start anew.
It's time for me to grow...
What's even there for me to gain?
I am feeling so distraught,
I've bit more I can chew.
I wanna decompose...
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14. |
Feel
04:17
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Feeling so much sorrows
What can I do 'bout it?
There is nothing that I can do,
There is nothing that I can do,
Will you look inside my heart?
I wanna tear it apart,
I am stuck inside the dark,
I had lost all my spark :(
--cho--
Can you hear the words of pain?
Can you see the tears of pain?
Can you hear my heart beating?
I'm gonna show you who I am
I'm gonna show you how I feel x 4
--mid--
Glitched: I can't, I I can't do this,
I failed, I I I Failed --
--2--
Even though I feel so
Head empty and no thoughts.
What is there that I can do?
What is there that I can do?
Why won't you look at my heart?
Can you please tear it apart?
Don't wanna be in the dark
Where is all of my spark?
--Cho--
Will you hear the words of pain?
Will you see the tears of pain?
Will you hear my heart beating?
I'm gonna show you who I am
I'm gonna show you how I feel x 4
Glitched: I can, I I can do this,
I did I I I did --
--outro mid--
I will show you how I feel
I will show you what I feel,
I will show you when I feel
I will show you who I am
No matter what I could do,
I will always be okay with me
Saddness does not last forever
We can do this work together
--cho--
I may feel all of my pain,
I will accept all my pain,
I understand all my pain,
I'll keep going on with life!
I'm gonna show you how I feel x 4
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Melobunii Texas
Hello, I am Anne/
Faeary. I am currently 26 years, and still going strong. I am Non-binary, disabled, deaf/HOH, bi,
Gemini. I am an artist and vocal synthesis producer. I rely on art commissions and my albums as I cannot work due to physical disabilities.
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